Oblivion
Chapter 7
“Are
you angry with me?” Blythe shook his head in the reflection, but something
inside him led me to believe otherwise. “Do you understand why I had to do it?”
Blythe
paced back and forth within the frame scratching his head lightly, “No, not
actually.”
“He
knew everything. He read my book and knew how much it killed me to love him.” At
first I was slightly taken back by my words. This was the first time that I had
really admitted to loving Marcus. “He wanted my love in return for all his so I
had to give him something. Plus, Blythe, I don’t really love him. I love the man he was in
so many of my fates. He was never that man in this life and I don’t believe he
ever will be.”
Blythe
looked as if he were getting ready to scold me, but then his mood lightened.
“You cannot claim him to be guilty of a present crime because of his past
endeavors. Although, he must know that ball of yours you could never hold your
whole heart inside. Most of it belongs to me.”
“God,
you know I really hate you sometimes.” I turned quickly as Blythe’s image
disappeared in the reflection and he was left standing behind me. As he stepped
closer to me I pulled the black crystal from the box and let it sit on the bed
next to me. “Get into the ball.”
“No.”
Blythe didn’t seem alarmed or surprised by my reaction. He never moved back
away from the ball or even glance in its direction.
“Blythe,
get into the damned ball!” I ordered again.
“No.”
I
stood up getting ready to force him into it. “I’m not playing around. I said
get into the ball.”
“Why?”
Blythe didn’t hesitate as he pushed himself back into the mirror. “Are you
beginning to doubt your powers?”
When
I turned around to face him again I could see the smug smile across his face. I
could only shake my head in defeat. “I would feel better knowing exactly why
they want you. They want you because of what you are. You’ve never told me, and
I don’t think that I want to spend all of my energy protecting something that
I’m not even sure what it is.”
Blythe’s
eyes rested on his crystal sitting on my dresser. “The answer is there. All you
have to do is break it.”
I
took the crystal in my hand and studied the murky center. “Wait, so you don’t
even know what you are?”
“Oh,
I know what I was. I just don’t remember.” Blythe lowered his head, but his
eyes remained fixed on the crystal in my hand. “I’ll tell you the same as what
Marcus was told. Once you break it there is no going back. I might once again
become what was placed inside.”
“And
what was that?” I
watched in the reflection as Blythe took a seat on the edge of my bed and
carefully ran his fingers just over the ball. My eyes drifted back to the ball
in my hand. Cautiously I sat it down on the blanket. It amazed me how careless
I had been with it, taking it from here to there tossing it onto the dresser. Blythe’s
reaction led me to believe whatever he locked inside was no good at all. “Blythe,
what were you?”
“For
every human there is a Heaven and a Hell. The same is for witches and warlocks,
an eternity of love or perpetuity of ruin.” Blythe turned from the crystal and
looked into the mirror where he already was. I couldn’t imagine what he would
have seen being on the other side of the glass. “I am not the same. You protect
my soul not truly from them, but from living forever as a nonentity. I know
that if I were to die without keeping my soul placed here somehow that I could
never enter either one.
That
is how I discovered the lives within the cat. I was dying just as I told
Violet, but I have to admit now that it wasn’t the first time that I done it. I
wasn’t about to risk losing everything that I was since my original life. You
must have noticed though that even though I have the lives it is much harder to
end my life. However, you took my lives to give them to my son, but I am more
grateful that you became my Heaven. I may be trapped inside of this parallel
existence, but I am indebted to you for saving me.”
“But
if you have a soul then shouldn’t you be able to…”
“No. I am as human as the rest of you all, but my soul
is different. In
order for you to understand exactly what I am you must break the crystal or
look for the meaning of our existence. I know that you have followed your
family history back to Bezalel, but in order for you to truly understand you
must search further.” Without warning my bedroom door opened removing the
mirror and Blythe from my sight. Although he was gone from my sight he had no
problem being heard. “I was talking!”
Anthony
hurried stepping inside and shutting the door. He turned to face his dad in
the mirror, “Sorry, but you really shouldn’t hang around like that.”
“I
wouldn’t except I don’t feel safe out there at the moment.” Blythe nodded in my
direction, “You see she plans to cast me…”
“Enough!” I butted in so that Anthony wouldn’t know my plans. “What did you need?”
“Enough!” I butted in so that Anthony wouldn’t know my plans. “What did you need?”
Blythe
seemed amused by my interruption which just confused Anthony even more. He kept
looking at his dad for clues, but none were given. “I just wanted to let you
two know that Trinity was on her way over for dinner. So if you wish to join us
keep your cool and no fighting. It was easier to explain that you were just
having another episode to Ben, but Trinity has no idea.”
I
nodded agreeing that I would be on my best behavior with his father. Blythe
nodded as well, but he held up his hand halting Anthony before he opened the
door again. “Anthony, don’t ever mention me to him. Never bring up my name or
even let the word father slip from your lips in his presence. Please?”
Anthony
looked at me for answers, but he was only given a blank stare. I had no idea
how to answer his questions when I had none for myself. “Alright.”
Once
Blythe was back in my sight I had to question him again about it. “Why don’t
you like Ben?”
“I
never said I didn’t like him. I just don’t trust him Ash.” Blythe placed his
hands on the frame as if he were studying the sturdiness of it.
I
had no intention of pulling him out of the mirror and forcing him into the ball
now, at least not until I knew what he was. “Does that mean you don’t trust
your son’s judgment?”
Blythe
pushed himself back from the frame and further back into my reflected room. “I
never said that I did. Each of us is different, but you know as well as I do
his views are easily swayed. Then again he is only human.”
“Wait,”
I held up my hand as thoughts began running rampant through my mind. “Both Matt
and Anthony are your sons. Does that mean that their souls are just the same as
yours?”
Blythe
eyed up the border of his realm, “If I come out, do you promise to play
nicely?”
I
nodded and put the black crystal into its box.
Blythe
appeared just a few steps away from me as he pulled the chair from me desk over
so that he could sit. “Our children have souls, very human souls. They must do
as everyone else and work to achieve their position to whatever afterlife they
choose. Our choices burdened us only, not our offspring. That would be cruel
don’t you think, to punish a child because of their parent’s crime.”
“So
there were or are others just like you?”
“You
would love that wouldn’t you?” Blythe laughed as he took my hands into his own,
“Keep me talking until all the answers are dissolved, but I can’t tell you. I
don’t have that much time here, so I will give you something to go on. Genesis,
chapter six, verse four.”
I
ripped my hands away from Blythe and quickly pulled a bible into them. Blythe
tore it from me tossing it across the room. I watched as it landed and slid
right into the door below the mirror. “This is one of those times that I hate you."
“Do
you want to know one of the things I love so much about you?” Blythe smiled and
I could see the world being swallowed up inside of his eyes. “Each time you die
you change. Every time that you awake you are different, but everything about
you remains the same. Tell me though, in this life, will you see me more often?
That was quite tormenting not being about to touch you or look into your eyes.
You disregarded me for years. I was with you whether you want to believe it or
not. I was right there by your side in every moment.”
Blythe’s
fingers ran though my hair and down over my back as he appeared right beside me
on the bed. They brought with them a sense of ease calming the tension that was
building up inside of me. I collapsed into his chest and let his arms surround
me with a love that I have longed to feel. This was my Heaven right here inside
of him. Tranquility and contentment filled my veins allowing me to finally feel
free.
“Why
did you push me so far away from you? Especially once you knew that it wasn’t
me.” Blythe’s voice was quiet keeping the mood still in the room. “I don’t
understand.”
“You
did nothing to help me. You left me to face Hell on my own.” My voice echoed
inside of his chest. Air was sucked in and released, but it sounded as though
his body was just a hollow shell. He was no longer alive or anything resembling
a man anymore. His skin was just as soft as it ever was, and everything else
about him seemed to remain the same on the surface. “They are more powerful
than me in all aspects.”
“They
also have Michael.”
“No,
he wouldn’t turn against you like that.” I looked up to find him eyeing up the
confines of his home. “Blythe?”
His
eyes faded and closed. Air filled up his hollow shell as he lay back onto the
bed dragging me down with him. I was content just lying there inside of his
embrace listening to the silence, but he had broken the stillness of the room.
“It is inevitable. Children always rise against their parents. I understand
now.”
“Understand
what?”
“Why
you tried to kill him. I can see everything falling into place.” Blythe chuckled
at his own amusement. “The seed doesn’t fall far from the tree.”
“No,”
I sat up out of his arms and stared at him. He never once turned his eyes my
way. Instead he kept them keenly on the mirror. “I’ve raised him differently.”
Blythe’s
body quivered slightly as he inhaled, “I did everything within my power to
never have children. I thought it was a blessing to have Mathieu, but God works
in mysterious ways. Does he not?”
“Blythe?”
“He
said he would always love us, no matter what we chose. He couldn’t change our
minds, but we were all his children.” He was beginning to sound as senseless as
I did sometimes. He was deep inside of his own mind and I began wondering if he
realized that he was talking aloud.
I
reached out for him, but it was too late. His time was over and he was pulled
back into the mirror. If he had stayed any longer it would begin having serious
effects on Mathieu and his own decaying body. Even though he was gone I could
still hear his voice mumbling. Glancing in the direction of his voice he was in
the mirror as I had assumed, but he was still lying on the bed in the same
exact spot. I began wondering if he realized himself that he had gone back.
With
his mind on other thoughts I brought the bible back and flipped through the
pages until I found the one he spoke of. ‘There were giants in the earth in
those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came unto the daughters
of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were
of old, men of renown.’
I
read the passage and reread it, but I didn’t understand what he meant by it. I
read the entire story, but it didn’t make any sense to me. None of it told me
what he was or why he was so damned to an eternity of nothingness when his soul
left this world. In order to figure this out I left my room in search of the
one person that knew everything, I hoped, about Blythe.
Remembering
that Trinity was either on her way over or here already I walked out of my
bedroom and down the stairs. With my eyes glued onto the words that Blythe led
me to I found my way sufficiently enough to the dining room where everyone was
sitting. Matt was at the head of the table, as always, Trinity and Anthony were
across from one another, Ben sat across from an empty seat, and Marcus sat at
the other end of the table facing Matt.
I
read aloud the words that I had been contemplating, and then I paused, waiting
for a response from someone. When no one answered I looked around to see
everyone’s eyes on me. Marcus, however, kept his eyes firmly placed on the bowl
in front of him. He looked as though he were sick or had been sick. His face
was pale and a residue of sweat was forming just over his brow. I could see
that his hands were trembling slightly as though he was ready to push himself
back away from the table to leave.
“Well,
does anyone know what it means?” I questioned.
“Are
you searching for forgiveness after last night?” Matt asked nodding to the book
in my hand, “Or have you just run out of reading material?”
Ben
beckoned me over as he was trying to quickly swallow whatever he was drinking.
After I handed him the book his fingers followed the words that I wondered
about. “The sons of God came unto the daughters of men, and they bare children
to them. It is written as plain as day, Ash. What don’t you understand?”
“Sons
of God, what else would stump her?” Matt started getting up from his seat, “The
rest is easy enough to get.”
I
quickly looked over to the window hoping to catch a glimpse of Blythe, but
there was no reflection in the glass. When I started turning my head back to
Ben who started explaining his words were cut off with a shrill scream from
Trinity. I had no time to react before I felt it then I saw him.
Marcus’
eyes were filled with pure detestation and his hands surrounding my throat were
just as clear in their purpose. My hands grasped his wrists hoping to eradicate
some of the pain. I was now face to face with him, and I knew that my feet were
now several inches from the ground. My head was repeated thrown back into the
wall as Marcus growled each of his words.
“You
took everything from me. My life, my love, and all you have given me in return
is this small token of your love.” Marcus removed one of his hands as he held
up the small red orb. His breathing slowed as he glared into me. I couldn’t see
it, but I could hear his hand beating against the wall. Finally the crystal
shattered once more into a thousand pieces.
I
had no strength to fight him off now. Everything in front of me became spotted
and faded. Marcus’ face was no longer there or was it? I couldn’t tell. I tried
to lift my hands that fell from his wrists, but they lay lifeless beside my
body. If Marcus continued talking I couldn’t tell. The only thing my mind could
hear in this moment was everything inside my neck crushing under the pressure
of Marcus’ hands.
I
could see through the reflection Marcus' full intent to end my life and he
had succeeded. I turned in the reflection on the glass to find Blythe, but I
was sure that it was there my life was truly ending. He was not here and when I
turned around again he was there in that life.
My
voice screamed and my fists beat against the glass. Nothing would break it. No
magic would force it to release me. Blythe touched my face, but he was staring
straight at me in the reflection. I immediately stopped fighting to get out.
The streams of tears falling down my face did not, however. Blythe inhaled
deeply and as he exhaled I watched the blue fade from his eyes. He closed them
and time continued once more taking me from the reflection.
The
air filled my lungs and the scream filled the silence of the room. It bounced
off the walls and back into me. Never before when I came back to life had I
felt so much pain. This time was considerably different. Pain bound inside
aching for anyway to release itself. Screaming at this moment seemed like the
best way to let it all out. It didn’t help as much as my body would have
wished.
I
wanted it to have been a dream, but I knew different. I had on no account ever
dreamed or had anything such as a dream while I was dying or dead. I knew
exactly what Marcus wanted in killing me other than getting revenge against the
pain that I had caused him to suffer. Now he was going to make me endure a
similar pain. I had sought to release myself from Blythe, but I could never
part from him like this. Marcus took him from me with the intent to never let
me see or feel him again.
The
rage inside of me was hollowed out leaving me completely vacant. My body felt numb
against everything surrounding me. My magic had held nothing and the world
around me was just as empty as I was. My thoughts turned as blank as my
feelings and I was essentially dead with a heartbeat. Marcus killed me worse
than he could have ever known.
The
darkness consumed me and his voice frightened me further inside of it. It
wasn’t his voice. There was no sound emanating from this void that kept calling
me. Running into what I thought was freedom turned into the same nothingness
that was pulling me under. I could feel him following right behind me. Each
time my feet desisted I could hear his breathing in my ear. Every time that I
turned to find him the void devoured the sight of him.
I would have cried out his name
hoping that it would allow me to see, but I couldn’t remember it. His face was
darkened by the emptiness filling me. His penetrating stare sat frozen inside
of my heart allowing my fear to thicken. I kept running from him, but it was
quite impossible.
Slowly my feet came to a halt, and I
lowered myself down on my knees. The voice stopped the moment my feet had
while his presence lingered behind, over, and all around me. I waited and
waited for what felt like forever for him to speak. With my eyes wide open I
could feel his breath upon my face, but darkness filled the world around me. He
was with me, but departed from my sight.
Finally his voice faded to and fro
as he began leaving me to wonder where he truly was even though I could feel
him with me. “Quickly, search within yourself and find one memory that he has
not seen. You must find at least one memory of your own to keep or he will take
them all from you. He is searching, leaving an immense abyss take over your own
mind. There is no running from it. You have to find a moment and refuse to
allow him to remove anything else. Find one and he cannot continue. Quickly
before everything you remember will be forgotten.”
I stared out into the vast darkness
that was surrounding me. There were no memories here, and I was quite sure that
none would appear. I did as his voice commanded. Closing my eyes I knelt there
trying to find something within my own mind to remember. Just as I thought I
had a shred of a memory it was ripped away without warning. Slowly his words as
well as his voice were fading from my mind. Tears poured out of my eyes afraid
that I would not be able to save myself.
My fists beat upon the black floor
each time a memory would come into my mind. Grasping a memory I fought to hold
on to it, but it was ripped away leaving only bits inside of myself. Whoever
was tearing me from myself was far more powerful than I could ever hope to be.
I
realized after losing most of me to him that I couldn’t just grab a memory. It
had to be a substantial memory that held emotion within it, something that
would reach out for me to hold on to as well. Pieces of me flew past until I
saw the life that I didn’t want to lose. A part of me reached back for myself
and I took a hold with no intention of letting this one get away.
Brown
eyes filled with pure love looked up saturating the core of my being. I
remembered that this was the first time that he had called me mum. Picking him
up in my arms I held him as tightly just as I had done with the memory. Bit by
bit my tiny little Anthony was fading from inside of me. My eyes closed begging
for mercy as he turned to pieces of nothing in my arms.
“Fight
back! He is taking everything that you are! You must fight back for yourself!”
The voice cried out halting my pleading for sympathy.
“Why
can’t you help me?” I whimpered knowing that I couldn’t help myself.
When
his voice came again despair wallowed through it. This time it did not fade in
or out instead it sat directly ahead of me, “I was the first thing he took from
you. My existence is a distance memory that had gone astray and lost to his
mind. I am sorry, but to you I have become less than this nothingness that
surrounds you. Do not let him take everything that you are. You must fight back
for the woman that I love. Do this for you and that little boy that he had just
ripped from you.”
“Who
was he?” I questioned looking down where I could almost envision him, but he
was gone. His eyes that I hoped to remember were lost. “What color were his
eyes again?”
“He
had your beautiful brown eyes.”
The
loneliness of this place was seeping into me. My memories were gone and I had
no hope of saving them. The voice couldn’t save me for that is all he was, just
a voice. “Would you stay with me until it is over? Promise me that you won’t
leave.”
Resentment
touched his voice leaving an echo inside of me. “I can’t stay much longer.”
“Please,
I’m so afraid.” I reached out into the emptiness in hope to catch him. “I don’t
want to be alone.”
“My
love, you are alone.” His words caused my low whimpering to become full blown
sobs. “Your worst fears are about to open up and swallow you whole. He is
causing you to lose everything you love leaving you with nothing. It kills me
to know that there is nothing I can do to save you.”
“Will
you be with me when I wake?”
“No.”
“Will
I ever meet you again?”
“I
think it would be safer for both of us if we never do.”
“Why?”
His
voice began fading away. “I shall love you always. Remember that if nothing
else.”
It
took everything within my power to get up from my bed. One step away from it
and I collapsed against the floor. The pain was excoriating, and
I understood now what it felt like to have my soul seized from the body. Where
it started or ended I wasn’t sure, but it coursed through my veins pushing me
forward.
With
each inch that I had gained closer to my goal it felt as though I was dying repetitively.
A hole within my chest was opening releasing everything that I was. It
continued to grow the closer that I got to my end. There was a firm whipping
against my back urging me to stop from getting to the voice. My skull was
splitting in two from the agony of my thoughts and the pain surging within my
body.
My
destination had come within reach, but the door blocked me from entering. I had
stretched for the knob to let me enter, but my hand slipped off refusing my
admission. Unable to lift myself up anymore I beat against the wood leaving
bloody handprints against the white paint. Once I had seen the red dripping
down the door I looked back seeing that my path had been covered with the same
pain soaked into the carpet.
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